I’m so confused with my life. Starting to feel like a second choice more and more everyday. I know I should stop complaining about it all and get on with my life like it’s all okay, but it’s not. I’m not. I’m losing myself bit by bit everyday. You’re getting bored of me when you said you never would. How hard do I try to make you happy? I do everything just so we can talk or spend time together. But you’re beginning to lose interest in me and want to talk to other girls and flirt. I’m sorry I’m not pretty enough. I know you want to be with a pretty girl, but I’m not. I don’t know how to be. Is there something wrong with me? I’m so glad that I have tumblr to share t world with, I can tell all my feelings to someone or something without judging me. I love him a lot, and he knows I won’t do anything to hurt him on purpose. Is this an advantage for him? I try harder and harder everyday to satisfy him. I’m confused tumblr. Help me, I’m breaking down more and more and losing it. He knows he can upset me or make me happy, he has the power to do that like no one else has. I don’t want this to be friends with benefits, where you only want there to be sex between us or something like that. I don’t feel as loved as I used to. I don’t really feel like your ‘princess’.. Yet I see you like your my prince and life-long love. I’m tired of fake smiling and trying to be happy infront of him now. I want him to know the real me and how I break down at night and sometimes cry myself to sleep, that’s why I look so tired all the time and can’t be bothered to dress myself up anymore. He is my backbone and my two legs. Without his love and support, what good am I? Nothing. I don’t want him to see other girls, and doubt our future. I don’t want him to see other girls as more than friends. I can’t help it but cry. All these other girls are a threat to me, and they trap me under the ground. I’m fake smiling and my inner sorrow is eating me away. Yes I cry a lot, and I’m not attention seeking. I cry way too much, because that’s how hurt I am. It’s not pathetic, I’m sorry I have emotions tumblr and you’re sick of hearing me complain but you’re all I have now. Everyone else judges me or doesn’t understand me. And the one person that does understand me, is out of my hands. He’s flown off to another group of birds and I’m left in grief. What do I do?